There are a number of passions or desires in my heart at present. For example:
- selling our house at the right time, for the right price;
- buying the house that fulfils all we need it to and plenty of what we’d like it to;
- finding a great job for my husband as we relocate and that the timings will mean we aren’t stuck for a mortgage;
- getting a school place for Joseph for September, preferably in the village we move to;
- getting a school place for Lily, preferably at the same school;
- packing, decisions, legal aspects, finances;
- this huge trust adventure, which makes all of the above seem utterly possible, in part because there is no way we can engineer it well ourselves.
Over and above all of this is my passion for relating more closely to God and the beat of his heart. He has given me a truly wonderful partner in Matthew – someone I look up to, treasure and want to support in all his great work. He has given the two of us two remarkable little ones: beautiful, sassy, creative, funny and intelligent kids who brim with vitality and have taught us all we know about how little we know.
The beat of God’s heart has taken me to serve in places abroad in the past, and back to home pastures too. It has brought me through pain to hope, over and over again. It has surprised me, made me laugh, broken my heart for the needy and hurting and given me strength when all strength seemed spent.
The beat goes on, and in this season the rhythm reminds me of my passion for written communication. For unlocking and expressing beautiful truths and making sense of things others would love to understand. The cycle of grace I wrote about in November has taken me into a place of creativity and a blossoming of ideas which I want to unpack. I will have to learn how to unpack these gifts well, so the process won’t be immediate. But I cannot ignore it. I am so excited.